February 2010
258 posts
thoughts on impermanence...
i want to be a bird without legs who has to sleep on the wind. i want to stretch out my wings and close my eyes, and trust that the wind will take me where i need to be.
on perfect days, the sky is clear so i can see the universe behind it.
rachel
i can’t shake this feeling that you’ll somehow be disappointed in me. i think my actions are maybe not in accordance with how i used to be, and it’s hard to explain this in an email but i’ve changed a lot and i still love you. i still consider you a close friend, and it’s hard to explain, it’s hard to verbalize but i feel like we have this weird connection and...
everyone
i feel right now like there’s not enough capacity inside me to think straight. i’m trying to think through shit in my life, trying to figure things out, but there’s no conclusion and no closure and everything feels so infinite. everyone feels so infinite.
three things to say:
1. thank you. you provide a lot of clarity for me, and i’m sorry.
2. it sucks. i need to be...
the passenger is not wearing her seatbelt
smultronstalle:
we were driving and your hair was caught in the lines in your lips and your cigarette was burning you alive. you told me you missed me and that it wasn’t much different there than it is here, that the street signs are gold instead of green and at the bottom of every shotglass there is a world you can look down on and feel like some sort of god. i told you that i didn’t expect you...
When I wake up in the morning, I'll be attending...
intertangledcircles:
wish me lot and lots of luck!
so much luck! i love you so much, not sure what time it is in germany but i hope your school is beautiful! and if it’s not you’ll bring the beauty it needed when you get there.
i guess all i can say is that i miss you a lot and i get super emotional because there are so many things i want to tell you, not necessarily that i...
January 2010
54 posts
wishing i could explain how i feel...
sort of volcanic, sort of explosive. like i need to go to bed, but in the sort of way that makes me want to pull an all nighter and get up tomorrow with bags under my eyes and a headache, because that will be something tangible and real. pain is always real.
OMNIA- you are too good. i want you to be in this world. i don’t think i need you to be, necessarily, but you are here for more...
amazing
your picture just reminded me how amazing the world has the capacity to be. and how amazing the six of you are.
1. you are so strong. i mean it. i’ve never met someone who was so ok with breaking, and your capacity to be overwhelmed makes you a miracle by any standards. i love you.
2. there’s no way to explain how connected to you i am. seriously. you probably know everything...
3 things.
i’ve started realizing that i sort of put myself on this pedestal all the time, and i don’t deserve it. i give myself too much credit for a lot of shit, and i actually have an ego. like a substantial one. i didn’t think i did. i want to say that i deserve for my life to flow the way i want it to, but i don’t think i do… does anyone?
1. i still like you. i...
“As if you could kill time without injuring eternity”
– Henry David Throeau (via jonsendrew)
dear you,
i wish you could be more humble. i wish you didn’t have the ego you pretend you don’t. feel free to date whoever you want. i don’t give a shit. and by the way, stop asking questions. i don’t know how to answer them.
TAYLOR
intertangledcircles:
I hope you’re followoing me. I just read your blog…I’m only kinda pieceing together what happened, I wish I could hold you. Don’t worry, everything is so so temporary. You’re obviously a beautiful person who deserves beautiful things and I trust that you will get them. I love you so much. Shit, I’m almost crying cause I wish I could be there for you, sorry.
please...
G
saw the white ink arrow tattoo. BOMB. i approve. also, it amazes me how authentic you are all the time. i believe you belong with gravity always, to keep you down to earth. :)
i wish it wasn't weird.
raspberriesandrum:
livewater:
you know things about me i never expected you to know. i can’t believe you trust me, or love me as much as you say you do. i actually can’t believe it. i don’t know if i want to know you anymore. i’m uncomfortable whenever i’m around you, and it fucking sucks. you wouldn’t be in my life at all if you didn’t have to be…
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giulia. i miss you. i saw you like...